[How fast paced this has all moved. Now, from what he understands of courting that sort of thing begins and ends rather quickly. It's the engagement that takes some time. At least for the lower classes as weddings are not a cheap thing. For nobility those actually come not terribly long after.
Perhaps, aside from the order of which they are doing things, they're moving along just fine.]
I do not find it disagreeable. [It's just not the way things should be done. Which is a hurdle he'd do well to get over a bit sooner than later or this will be a very stressful getaway.] It is just... [He hesitates some not sure if he should give voice to it.] I always assumed my bed would contain only myself... Just as the estate would. It was just the state of things and I was willing to accept it as such. [No self respecting noble woman would tie herself down to the Reaper of the Old Bailey. He's fascinating to read and gossip about but not to marry.] I suppose it's these sudden realizations that all the little things will now be filled with your presence that leaves me a touch dazed. That good is happening and it is unfamiliar in my hands.
[Every lonely moment he's so painstakingly familiar will no longer be so. She'll now be there. It's something he didn't consider when he was thinking about all of this and them. Maybe because it was all thought about from a work perspective. The estate was on his list of things to take care of but no more than that. But it needs to be taken care of for her visitation. Where she'll sit across from him at the table and be by his side in bed.]
If you truly feel this will not impede upon your honor in any way... I will join you at your request. Ideally, should this go well it will be the natural state of things going forward, will it not?
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Perhaps, aside from the order of which they are doing things, they're moving along just fine.]
I do not find it disagreeable. [It's just not the way things should be done. Which is a hurdle he'd do well to get over a bit sooner than later or this will be a very stressful getaway.] It is just... [He hesitates some not sure if he should give voice to it.] I always assumed my bed would contain only myself... Just as the estate would. It was just the state of things and I was willing to accept it as such. [No self respecting noble woman would tie herself down to the Reaper of the Old Bailey. He's fascinating to read and gossip about but not to marry.] I suppose it's these sudden realizations that all the little things will now be filled with your presence that leaves me a touch dazed. That good is happening and it is unfamiliar in my hands.
[Every lonely moment he's so painstakingly familiar will no longer be so. She'll now be there. It's something he didn't consider when he was thinking about all of this and them. Maybe because it was all thought about from a work perspective. The estate was on his list of things to take care of but no more than that. But it needs to be taken care of for her visitation. Where she'll sit across from him at the table and be by his side in bed.]
If you truly feel this will not impede upon your honor in any way... I will join you at your request. Ideally, should this go well it will be the natural state of things going forward, will it not?